YOU ARE YOUR OWN MEDICINE.

There comes a point in your life when you want to live inside your own shell. You feel like a baby. You want to cry but tears just won't come out. You loathe conversations. A familiar face makes you run in the opposite direction. You feel out of the place. You feel cheated. You want to be in your own world for the entire day.
People taunt you. They don't know what really happened. You want to say things to them, maybe puke at them but you walk away. Because it's not worth it. They won't understand. No one will really understand. They are curious. Or maybe they are concerned but you don't want to speak. You can't talk.

You need a hug. A tight hug from someone who loves you unconditionally. You want to rest in your mother's lap silently. You want to lock yourself in a room and never open it again. You take hour long showers.You feel like going to some snowy place with all the calmness and peace. You want to be loved by someone who you have feelings for. But he loves someone else. He just saw you once. Or twice maybe. And you fell in love. With his eyes. With his smile. With the joy on his face. With him, eventually.

You start distracting yourself. You watch films all the time. You stop bothering yourself with what others say or feel or think about you. They are still strangers. Always were. You make a new plan again. You start working on it. And you stop giving a fuck about anything else.

And then suddenly, one day you come out of your 'I WANT TO GO TO THE HIMALAYAS NOW' mood. You become happy. You start loving again. You start smiling again. You start pampering yourself again. You forget what happened. Your new game plan gives you hope.

This has happened with most of us. This feeling of sadness. Of crying all the time. Not necessarily with tears. To have minimal interactions. To go out with strangers. To stop trusting new people.

And this just makes you STRONGER. Yes, it does. You become a new person. You start to blossom again. You know you can heal yourself every time. You love yourself even more. You become a happy person again.

Each one of us have the capability of bringing ourselves out of this shell. Of being this joyful person again. Who loves helping elder people. Who enjoys playing with children. Who wants to fall in love again. Who wants to make everyone around smile. Who wants to make their parents proud.

Who dreams of travelling the world with self earned bucks. Bungee jumping, sky-diving, ice-skiing. Having everything. From that Guess watch you saw at display last night to the Gucci shoes your feet can't wait to get in. From that pretty dress you imagined yourself in to the best hairdo ever. From the best friends to the best lover. From your parent's smile to your own happiness. And self-satisfaction.

You are your own medicine.
Go. Heal yourself. :)

P.S.  Why am I writing this? I want to. I feel this sudden unlimited joy at 3 A.M. for some reason.